when u are in the middle of something you can't get out...

it's nice to have a real pillow whom you can embrace... but it's hard to commit... you can't promise that you'll always be there too. its not my fault... it was destiny's course. but im happy and i want it to stay the same... there are so many things i fear.

last thurs, oct 23, 2003 was really really great day for me and my med friends: Deo "Buh", Deodar, Annabel, Emmalyn, Nitz, Meann, Chona, Ivy.

We met up in school, then went to Food Corner near UST to buy the best miki bihon according to Deo. Then bought roasted chicken, softdrinks and junk food at Robinson's Ermita.

We had our lunch at Annabel's house and had a bonding. All the things we haven't talked about were brought up. It was cool. We had a laugh of all the pictures we took.

We were supposed to go to CCP to go biking but then we decided to go to the church of the Shrine of the Sacred Heart of Jesus at the reclamation area. We were all picture lovers such that we had pictures of ourselves in funny acts on the road.

Then we headed to Jollibee... not to eat but to get some forks and cups for our baon pancit. Modus! With all our brave faces, we dared to ask for them without buying anything at Jollibee... We laughed our hearts out.

Then we had a picnic near the bay. We were supposed to ride the boat but then there was no available. So we ordered pork bbq and ate our baon by the bay. We stayed there till 7 pm.

Star City was our next stop. Deodar unleashed his shooting skills to be able to give us, all the girls, with baby sheep stuff toys. Everyone was so happy and manic. Then we roamed around and enjoyed the scenes.

Then we had coffee at Starbucks at around 9pm. We had fun talking again.

Then we hit Ratsky at 10pm. We were lucky because Paolo Santos was there!!! We were all giddy with his songs and we had the chance to have pictures with him and have our kleenex signed by him. Then at 1am we danced the night away till 3am.

Deo brought us home and Meann, Nitz, and Emmalyn stayed till it was morning.

It was really brill.

oh deary, this site has no updates... im changing it soon after the exams are over.
i had a great time today with my friends esp. manic Nitz hehehehe...

well before i forgot i just turned 22 last sept 16. happy birthday to me!!! and to my mom on the 19th....

hehe... some dr md posted a constructive comment... but tnx. i really wont take it against u. i know dat. my sis also said that the site is too much of a "ME". but its ok, i think so because this is a personal site. but then there is no personal info dat i give out like phone num or address... and i dont answer spam. this is just my breathing room.

when im bored, i post things here... i take quizzes online, etc... stuff that most people do too... and greet some people here... check out the archives.

i have some websites i made for OTHERS! for free!! check out www.upbiochem2002.cjb.net and www.geocities.com/sbcm2006
there are profiles of each member in the class there, will dat sound too vain too if i posted their own likes and dislikes, answers to some of personal questions too?

i don't think its a great idea to put others here kc bka ayaw nila... ung pics nga ng iba kong friends dito paalam pa kc u know... so this site is for me only. so what can you say?

thanks anyway for the comment.

perfection?

what's ahead?

I took another quiz... the ULTIMATE personality test... I am the...


Idol


The ULTIMATE personality test
brought to you by Quizilla

How do you act when you are in love?
I love to cuddle... and kiss... super sweetums.
What is your reaction when a guy stares at you for no reason?
I wear the snobbish face and do no eye contact.
What's your form of relaxation?
Surfing the internet with a huge glass of ice cold coke.
Do you care a person approaches you only for academic purposes?
I don't. I want to be of help... maybe that's why I considered shifting careers from chemistry to medicine.
What annoys you?
Guys that are carefree...

opps.......... hindi pala dun ung range ng bday nya... male!!!! wla akong kilalang aries na guy...

another quiz... ha... naaddict nako.... What kind of Zodiac im attracted with?? well my crush's birthday really falls in this range! hehehehe... too bad he doesn't have an idea I liked him... he's too busy with another girl.... sobs....


You should be dating an Aries.
21 March - 19 April
This person is a leader, very energetic, always
helping others to achieve their dreams. Though
at times, Aries can be be bossy, jealous, and
selfish, this ram enjoys sexy new challenges in
bed!


What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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[plugs to emmalyn, nitz, chona, deo r.]

here's another quiz i took... haha... seems nice... this is honest! of course, this online quiz is just for fun... im really having fun in the midst of the thought that my classmates studying hard... hehehehe.....

What kind of girlfriend I am????

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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haha! im so tired of studying... unfortunately (my word for the day...), i haven't read a thing yet. and 6 exams are coming up this week and what am i doin here? internet again? grrr....
anyway, i came across this online quiz...

narcissistic


Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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I feel tired... I' m tired of sitting and studying... when will this end?

Winks to pancho! ayan binati kita!!! ingat ka dyan...

Uy Deo! intriga, ivy..... hehehe...

Nitz, Venus, sori tlga, I didn't know u were so persistent, thanks for understanding.

Happy Birthday mike! san tyo celebrate? Saya ng birthday mo 2 exams!

my new friend sent me through email my horoscope:


(Ago.23-Set.22)
Nakikiayon ang pamilya at mga kaibigan sa mga tinatakbo ng iyong lovelife. Nakikita nila kung ano ang karisma ng iyong mahal.
Marami na ang pinagdaanan mo para sa iyong lovelife. Palagpasin na lamang ang maliliit na isyung nakakagulo sa isip


hehehe... nkakatawa... tagalog na tagalog ang horoscope ko!
thanks pancho.

What is more surprising than being on top again?!!! I really didn't expect to be on top in our 1st Pharmacology. I was just interested in knowing if I passed... the exam was really hard. and I couldn't comprehend it! Least of all my expectations was to be on the top again... Thank God! Everything is turning out perfect this school year. In most of my exams, I fairly managed to be on the list of topnotchers! Pathology, Psychiatry, Pharmacology, PBL 2nd quiz, except for Neuro (rank 11) & PBL 1st quiz (I have a high grade although not on top). Praise the Lord tlga!
I hope God will continuously provide me and my family with blessings.
I'm blessed to have better friends now who can really understand me and I can really relate to... without any malicious intent, without the limitations of being teased. Well, its all in the mind of the person who thinks about it. I just want clean friendship but then they blew it off. Maybe I reached my threshold. Friendship was supposed to be give and take. I tried my best to share clean friendship but then they failed my expectations... instead what they gave in return were words to put u down (although at first they were words of encouragement but then as time goes on it was turning into words of their own insecurities to bring you down). Actually I didn't loose anything. ... wait, maybe my time... they were a waste of time. I wasn't able to get a friendship connection. Parang... kanya kanya pla a... sige kanya kanya nlang. So sorry nlng... I did my best but yet there was no sign of growing friendship.
At least, i have friends now I can count on. They're better and they value you.

Pusong mahal ang pintig mo, ay tawag ng pag-ibig.
Banayad mong bulong sa kin ay kay gandang himig.
Sayong bulong, aking puso'y sadyang naakit.
Ngunit aking sala ay yong pasakit.

Gayunpaman, mananalig ako sa Yong habag.
Naway' Iyong kalingain itong punlang tawag.
Di man ako handang lubos, akong manunumpa.
Pusong mong kasabay, magtataya.

Kahit nangangamba, sa yo ay mag-alay.
Batid ko rin namang ikaw ang buhay
Kaya ako ngayo'y manunumpa
Ako ay sa iyo habang buhay.

---- our very lovely song in mass. For the Lord God!!! hi to my choirmates.. joyce, nica, joane, charlene, ate babes, lei, francis, kuya angel, kuya dindo, kuya dong!!

Tom Welling is a hottie! I really like his smile, his height, his eyes, his hair! Gosh! I wish I have a boyfriend like him! God, he's so cute... kinikilig ako... grabe na to!

thank God Thank God!!!! i ranked top 4 in our 1st pathology exam (85%)!!!
yipee! yippe!!!! i ranked top 9 in our 1st psychiatry exam (55/70 = 78%)!!! although there was no top 5-8. Ranking was based on a grade interval system.
yahuu! yihaaa!!! i ranked top 11th in our 1st neurology exam (74%)!!!!

Thank God tlga... ksi kpag hindi... maglulupasay tlga ako! hehehe...
We are 135 students in our class. And 78 people failed the neuro exam... tough huh??!!!

Hehehe... im posting this here for my personal record.

I just finished my psychiatry exam... i pray to get a high score... or a perfect one! O God!

its a sunday!!! my rest day!
it was just a week from medical school and i feel so saturated! i started changing my study habits and I think it is working... im understand lessons well although its giving me eyebags!!! but im doing this because ive been praying for that 1.5 grade. help Lord.
I woke up early today and I love my pandesal and noodles breakfast... hehehe... simple but joyous food!
i was really tired yesterday I wasnt able to sing for the mass... yayskkk...

hi to apple!!!!

its funny. We had elections for class officers today. and I was elected as the Publications officer. But I was nominated in 4 consecutive positions! VP, Secretary, Finance Officer, Publications Officer. I guess I was the most nominated but just won the last. I really didnt want to be an officer but I dunno I guess it would be ok then. It felt really funny.

anyway, back to study... :)

classes will start tomorrow! i duno why im excited to wear my white uniform with such energy now? its because im challenged to get a grade of 1.5 now?

yesterday, and the other day, i was busy with my website project on San Beda College of Medicine and Nursing. This time, this project is done with fee already! At last! Thanks for trusting me and my sister, Dr. Fong. We have a deadline for a month. It will contain some programming for the online application. "Raket to! yehey!" And we will be maintaining the site. I was really excited for it so actually finished the designs already... Im quite slow in designing it because I'm really treating it intricately. And really looks formal... seems like a real professional webdesigner made it... hehehe... too bad I'm not a Comp Sci grad... but it seems like I am.. hehehe... well, i was the best in computer in high school in our batch. ngek.. so? The thing that's tasky here is the research, bec i think I will be the one to research and write (i'm a writer?) the contents of the site. And one more think, im the photographer (photographer?!) for the site... yayks... anyway, it will be worth the pay... This could help for my expensive schooling in medical school.

Anyway, I promised to myself that I won't be using the computer today... and what the heck am I doing here again? I'll have to be ready for tom.

Ok, so bye for now, I think I'll just watch a VCD "Beautiful Mind".

P.S. Please give me shout out. its easy. just click the link.

cool!

I finally have set up my blogger. I was basically against this thing before... but ive finally thought about it... it doesn't matter really. Just make urself happy I say.

i dunno if i really like to write. hmmm... im a med student marge... concentrate on ur studies girl! ang gulo no?

whew, classes will start on the 16th and im finally getting more serious this time. I have never been more conscious with my school things i.e. where to buy books, subjects to take, notebooks, uniform, making a reviewer, etc. I wonder how will my grades look like this year. I have to make good. No bfs!! I have to get that scholarship!

Summer, as I have thought, was not that boring although I stayed a lot at home. A lot of things happened:

* i broke up with my bf. it was really a gruelling May week for me. I don't want to think about it.
* i started to make and sell my invention: SOAP! "Wink" Liquid detergent, "Wink" Bath Soap. Although I lacked funds to continue the business.
* i learned how to partition my pc. i had to this because my pc crashed last sun and i figured out how to fix it in 12 straight hours. whew!
* i became more concentrated with my singing in church bec my choir-mates usually are absent and I have to make up for them. It was better though, the priest gave us a thumbs up this time. The few of us choir members became more closer.
* i got my pinky finger operated last at Metropolitan hosp. This time with a microsurgeon. ill have the stitched removed on Mon. it's ok now. normal. there was just a little mysterious lump growing.
* i published www.sbcm2006.co-inc.com Our official batch site. I hope they will continue patronizing it.
* i updated the www.upbiochem2002.cjb.net My college site.
* i get to email my hs classmates in my yahoogroups.
* i get to meet new guys (through my mom!), although im the shy type. We went to Siete Picados.
* my old friends called up... it was cool.
* i was able to withstand having only P300 load for my cellphone for 2 mos! it was a miracle! Thanks to Chikka msgr.
* i get to chat a lot of my friends... It good to keep in touch.
well, just counting blessings...
im going back to reviewing basic Pharmaco.

Wow, this is my 1st blog. I'm kinda thrilled because ive seen this kind of stuff in some personal websites. But I first thought that keeping a blog would make open my privacy to the whole world! But then I thought that it's up to me to disclose things I would want not to share..
This would be like a personal journal though. Maybe my random thoughts and feelings will be posted... especially now that I just have to face my medical books with great passion this year. Whew....
Goodluck to me... enjoy! (^;^)